Remeniscence.of.life

2011

2011-12-31T12:27:00.000+08:00

"anything that doesn't kill you will only make you stronger".

assalamualaikum...what's up y'all?
my 2011 has been quite a roller-coaster ride. there were ups and downs,tears and laughter, good and bad moments. a bit of a round up of my 2011 happenings which consist of things that i did/experienced for the first time:

a) I was finally posted to a school in Selangor. which means i am employed! the school is approximately 55km from my parents' house. a brand new school which i was grateful about. aside from the workloads which keep on mounting up, i'm truly blessed with the opportunity given to me. i enjoy the company of all the teachers in the school.although at times, i felt demotivated and stressed out, i managed to go through all the obstacles. i thank all who have been very supportive ( my family, my friends, my colleagues). i am not sure how long i will be in the school but i only hope for the best in the future.

b) I rented a house near my school. this was the first time i rent a house. although i did this during my stay in australia but in malaysia, this was my first time. i had to do everything on my own. searched for the house on the internet, met the owner, moved in, stayed with 2 housemates who are a total stranger to me, got the house an internet connection, pay the utility bills, cooked (occasionally). everything was new and i'm grateful to have experience them which indicate that i'm now a grown-up man. (hey, you're already 24, zaim!).ooppsss..;)

c) i bought a car! the first thing that came to my mind when i got my first paycheck was to get a brand new car. which i did. and i was super excited! but the car had 2 accidents recently which left a big scar on its back. but still, i love my car so much! (p/s i dun have a name for the car ok?)

d) i went to pangkor and cameron highlands! pangkor for a course and cameron highlands with my year 6 pupils for their excursion. my first time going to these two places. pangkor was super fun especially when i got to meet with my fellow college mates. cameron highland was not bad either. both trips came at the right time when i need an escapade.

these were some of the things that i did for my 2011. my first time experience to be exact.

this year has been a meaningful year for me. i hope 2012 will have a lot of fun in store for me.let's hope for the best!

new youtube sensation????

2011-09-22T16:13:00.000+08:00

and the wait will be over in a few hours time....

2011-07-23T09:15:00.002+08:00

i'm uber excited!;). pictures will be uploaded later.

when you say nothing at all

2011-07-22T02:39:00.000+08:00

i choose to be silent for a reason. i can be loud if i can. i respect my colleagues who are much senior than me and have a lot of experience. don't simply put forward your imprudent judgment towards me saying i wasn't contributing anything.

"kalau belajar overseas mesti banyak idea.kalau x, kenape kerajaan nk hantar awak ke sana dan awak x cedok idea2 dari sane."

and in the end, what you can do was just smile.

hey! (current updates or should i say updates yg da berkurun lame???)

2011-07-20T04:39:00.003+08:00

salam.
waddup? phewww~~~after a long hiatus, hey,i'm back! haha.i know i don't sound that excited but worry not, i will try to update the blog from here onwards. big apology.

and let me start with this,

i'm now a full-fledged teacher! or should i say half-fledged teacher??? since i still have to wait for quite some time before i can declare myself as a qualified teacher. i am currently teaching at a primary school in Sungai Buloh. a new school with 900++ students and 62 teachers and just celebrated its first anniversary on the 1st of July.yeay and a big hooray for the new facilities, equipments but a boo-hoo for the workloadSSSS! since it's a new school, there are a lot of paperwork to do, files to update etc. and since there are fewer male teachers there, a lot of responsibilities are given to me. i have to be in-charge of the timetables, the eMis data, Ketua guru Kelab Bola Baling, Secretary for Pengakap, Penyelaras PPDa and the list goes on. and not to forget, i am the "official" photographer for the school's events. Tetap dan berpencen as the photographer. and i believe more responsibilities are soon to come.

but amidst all the chaotic and topsy turvy situations i encountered, i am blessed for the experiences gained. I thank Allah for the opportunities given to me. I am a true believer of the saying as i loosely translate it " Allah must not test you unless He thinks that you are capable of handling it". and Alhamdulillah, everything went well up to this moment. i am looking forward for the next challange!

those who think that being a teacher is easy, think again! let's swap place for a day! i'm happy for the swap.any takers?????

teaching might be easy but educating is a true challenge. and i also believe, teaching can't be taught, it's a gift! and teachers out there, believe me, you are all GIFTED!

and i still have a long way to go................58-24=34 years!

please remind me....

2011-01-11T00:19:00.005+08:00

and ana rafalli won AJL last night with her song "Tolong Ingatkan Aku". i was a bit shock at first hearing the result but after a while, after hearing her song over and over again, it kinda make sense why the judges chose this song as "the song of the year". it was poetic and has a very deep meaning. congrats to ana for winning that night! ( and she got to spend that rm35000 on her own).

for those who want to get to know ana rafalli, you can search for her facebook profile or you can have a look at her blog.

and one more thing, one of the my two favs song was actually in the top 3. congrats hafiz! plus hafiz also won the best vocal performance that night.

p/s i always think that girls who play guitar are hot!

and the winner is...

2011-01-09T17:34:00.003+08:00

tonight is the 25th Anugerah Juara Lagu. i'm rooting for these two songs.

i've got my favs.what's yours?

the first

2011-01-09T01:42:00.002+08:00

this was the first gig i did with the whole band. first time being on stage. it was a hell lot of fun! please pardon a few glitches on the singing coz i had a very bad sore throat that day. thanks to the band mates (nigel, hisyam, nuar and con).

p/s credit to Ain for uploading this on youtube. it's good to sometime look at yourself performing. maybe this is a stepping stone for a bigger gig in the future...maybe...

conversation

2011-01-08T13:05:00.002+08:00

having a long conversation with a total stranger is definitely therapeutic. thank YOU!

2011

2011-01-08T12:49:00.003+08:00

sekarang semua orang dah ade azam baru. i have my own new year resoultions as well but i'll keep it to myself first.instead of making a post of my new year's resolution, i want to make a wish list of things that i want for 2011.

1) a brand new car
- still haven't decided which car should i get but it'll definitely a brand new car.

2) a dictionary & grammar books
- as geeky as it sounds, i do need these two things. i need the latest edition of dictionary and some very good grammar books. somehow, i have developed a sense of interest in learning grammar in depth. This is due to my current job which is an assistant at a tuition center who teaches English and i realized that there are may grammar rules which I have forgotten.

3)new shirts and jeans.
- have not yet done my shopping for the past 4 months. i started to get bored with my
wardrobe. same old clothes worn over and over again.

4) perfumeS
- been eyeing on a few perfumes. will definitely get any of them once i get my first paycheck.

5) a Blackberry
- seeing people updating their facebook's status via BB suddenly makes me interested in owning one.

well, there you have it. although there's only 5 of them but definitely it'll require a lot of cash. will definitely start to learn to save up some cash. wish me luck!

and then it's almost over....

2010-04-27T22:07:00.002+08:00

indeed it is....my 5 1/2 years course will soon come to an end...i can proudly say that i am a degree holder...yeay!!now what sets me apart from holding the degree is the practicum...yes..THE PRACTICUM!!! the 3 whole months of not-having-enough-sleep plus writing endless lesson plans and what not....there goes my personal life...no more karaoke-ing, no more movie watching...haih...pray hard for my survival peeps! i can see myself choking and strangling myself with the tremendous amount of works that await me....pray hard!! God please help me to get through this...

i'm still deciding of what to do after getting my degree...am i going to be a teacher who teaches for the rest of his life at school? or should i get my master's and PhD?hhmm...a big question mark.. i should plan now... (a reminder for myself)..

p/s and also i'm still deciding on which car should i get as my first car after i get my first paycheck...hehe...

the art of teaching....

2010-02-03T00:23:00.002+08:00

do i have it?
can i learn to master it?
i'm just too late...too late to post this question to myself.
now i'm doubting myself. yet i try to be positive all the time.
positive zaim, stay positive...

self esteem

2010-01-22T22:50:00.002+08:00

salam satu malaysia! ( i sound like one of the tv presenter...)

have u ever encountered a particular person who obviously looks high upon themselves? whatever he or she does has always been the most outstanding thing u've ever witnessed?

i dun blame these people for what they believe in, which is obviously THEMSELVES. i always admire people who have such a high self esteem. i envy them for being able to not think about their weaknesses and always bring forward their strengths. but there's always a limit. self esteem is often misjudged by people as being cocky and arrogant. well, i do believe when you have gone over beyoonnndddd the limit, then people would have misjudged you. so, tone it down.

so to whom it may concern, please be aware of your own actions. i'm not asking you not to love yourself but remember there's always a limit. a limit which you can set by yourselves.

regards,
zaim

hypocrisy

2010-01-14T22:10:00.003+08:00

sometimes it's good to be hypocrite. i just choose to be one in certain occasions. i just don't want to get involved in any drama. i'm sick and tired of it. i've had enough.

if only...

2009-12-07T17:06:00.002+08:00

hye peeps,
just watched "Oprah Winfrey show". it showcased few of talented children. i was astounded with the amount of talented kids out there and the talents that they have. there's one children who is very talented in tv hosting and she got the chance to interview taylor swift which is her favorite singer ever. there's also one boy who sings like an angel and made goosebumps all over me.

i was very attracted to one of many quotations made by taylor swift. she said and i quote" when you have a dream and something that you really want to do, just go for it and never look back. you'll experience the ups and downs but just cherish every moment of it. at the end of the day, you'll be amazed with what you've achieved and be thankful with all the experience you've gained".

i couldn't agree more. but if only i could turn back time and do what i really wanted to do. if only i could be able to experience the ups and downs and the obstacles in realizing the dreams which i long for. but it's all too late now.

but to be in the positive side, although what i did for these past years has not been one of my dreams to be doing, but i'm very thankful of all the experiences i've gained. i tried my best to make my mind to take this positively and bring all the "good" vibes towards all my actions and behaviors.

just one more year, zaim. be patient.

and all your sacrifices will be worth doing and you'll be one of the best in the profession that you'll be in- a TEACHER that is.

in just one more year, you'll be hearing cute little voices shouting your name out loud, "Good Morning, Sir Zaim". to be honest, can't wait for that time to come.

with that, i do believe that teaching is a profession where you have to be in it to love it. the experiences that somehow hook you up to it.

till then, i'm a great believer of this saying " a great teacher inspires". that's what i'm aiming for. pray for me.

thanks.

regards,
zaim

ayah, abah, papa, daddy,abi...

2009-11-13T07:14:00.003+08:00

salam peeps,
i love kids. period. i love being accompanied by kids all the time regardless of their naughty well being and attitude. i love seeing their faces and the laughter and joy that they portray through their pretty little faces. i love it when they try to get your attention by doing silly things. i love the serenity that you can get when you see their innocent faces. They are are little angels that make your day full of happiness. that's why i choose to teach in a primary school.
i always dream of becoming a father one day. i always try to imagine the day when i first welcome my own baby and the way that i'll teach him or her to be a good person. i want to get the feeling of hearing my child calling "ayah", "abah", "daddy" or "papa" to me. i know that will also come with huge responsibilities but i seriously want to experience the calmness that u can get by hearing your child calling your name. this has always been the topic of discussion among my friends and I. When they started to talk about children, kids, babies etc, i started becoming very attentive and "alive" in the discussion.

i have been mistaken to be having my own kids a lot. there was this one time when i was on a flight to tasmania. there were a mother and her pretty little daughter who were seated in front of me. i started to play with the daughter and suddenly the mother turned around and said " how many kids do you have?". and i was like,"hhhmm, i dun have any kids. i'm still studying." and she replied " you are very good at handling kids. you'll be a great father one day." and at that moment, i was very happy and overwhelmed. at first i was a bit shocked as i thought of maybe my face looked a bit older. but realizing the fact that most people in Australia married and have their own kids at a very young age somehow swept away my negative thought. and the recognition that the mother gave to me was really aspiring and motivational.

can't wait to have my own family. a big happy family. me, my wife, and three little angels. two boys and 1 girl. ;). that's only a plan. it'll all be in God's hand.

adios kudos muchos.

wtf...

2009-11-11T21:07:00.003+08:00

salam everyone..
hhmm how ironic to start with a salam when u have a post with a "cursing" title. anyways, just received my flight ticket back to Malaysia from the government. was pretty happy and excited. on the other hand, i was pretty upset and shocked with what i've seen. guess what? my flight ticket back to malaysia costs rm11583!!!! i was extremely shocked when i saw the amount stated in the itinerary. it was ridiculous when u have to pay that amount of money for a one way economy class ticket. even a business class ticket on the same airline to malaysia from brisbane only costs you rm8000 max.

so that means, the government has to pay at least rm300,000 for all 26 of us in brisbane to go back to malaysia. well, how about my fellow colleagues in new zealand and the uk?? how much had the government spent just to get us back to malaysia? yup, i know we should be grateful and blessed with all the sponsorship that we've got. personally, i am grateful and blessed. but thinking of having to pay a huge amount of money when u can get a cheaper deal really frustrates me. let say, if the ticket only costs about rm 4000. so where the hell is the other rm7000++?? into the pocket of some culprit(s) that only think of grabbing the opportunity that they can get to "steal" the money from the government??i don't really get it.

i know i dun have the power to change all of this. i just want to express my dissatisfaction. i know politics have its own good and bad. but sometime i dun really get the idea of having the power to manipulate other people. when u have the power, u should use it wisely. when u have the responsible, u have to do it with honor and respect. u shouldn't neglect it or just do take it for granted.

this is why sometime i do think i dun even make the cut of being in the political arena. i'd rather be at the "background" than be the front runner.

hope politics in malaysia do change for a better future of the nation.

adios kudos.

random

2009-10-26T15:13:00.002+08:00

haiyya peeps!
phewww~~~just submitted my second last assignment before sem 2 for 2009 ends. been super duper busy lately ( which resulted in me neglecting this blog for a looooooooooooooong time).

few random stuffs happening during that period:
1) will be going back to malaysia for good on the 30th of nov. i've already started packing up things and buying stuffs for my beloved family. can't wait! plus i'll be welcoming a new member of my family any time in december! congrats sis! i've already bought u some pressies.

2) just got my allowance last week. extremely excited and overwhelmed. ;).

3) planning for my trip to nz. i'll be going to new zealand from the 16th of nov until the 26th. so people in nz, u guys better watch out!

4) currently addicted to "Glee".it is a new tv show which resembles "High School Musical" in so many ways. High school kids, music influences their life, drama, etc. U guys better watch it coz it is super cool!

will be updating any time soon. till then, ilalliqa' ( in arabic which means till we see next time).

kudos muchos nachos nandos,
zaim

current interest

2009-04-24T11:19:00.002+08:00

this is my current interest.

Jai Ho! (You Are My Destiny) [feat. Nicole Scherzinger] - The Pussycat Dolls

Yes! Jai Ho from Pussycat Dolls and AR Rahman.soundtrack of slum dog millionaire. n here's the lyrics.

Jai Ho (Pussycat Dolls n AR Rahman)
(Jai Ho)
(Jai Ho)I got (I got) shivers (shivers),
When you touch away,
I'll make you hot,
Get all you got,
I'll make you wanna say (Jai Ho)

(Jai Ho)

I got (I got) fever (fever),
Running like a fire,
For you I will go all the way,
I wanna take you higher (Jai Ho)
I keep it steady
Cuz steady is how I feel it.
This beat is heavy, so heavy,
You gon feel it.

(Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,(Jai Ho)
You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai Ho)
You are my destiny,
Jai Ho! Uh-uh-uh-oh!
(Jai Ho)No there is nothing that can stop us(Jai Ho)
Nothing can ever come between us,(Jai Ho)
So come and dance with me,
Jai Ho! (oohh)

Catch me, catch me, catch me, come and catch me,
I want you now,
I know you can save me, come and save me,
I need you now.
I am yours forever, yes, forever,
I will follow,
Anywhere in anyway,
Never gonna let go.

Jai Ho

(Jai Ho) Escape (escape) away (away),
I'll take you to a place,
This fantasy of you and me,
I'll never lose the chase. (Jai Ho)

Yeaahhhh (Jai Ho) Yeaahhhh

I can (I can) feel you (feel you),
Rushing through my veins,
There's an notion in my heart,
I will never be the same.

(Jai Ho)Just keep it burnin', yeah baby,
Just keep it comin', (Jai Ho)
You're gonna find out, baby,
I'm one in a million.

(Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,(Jai Ho)
You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai Ho)
You are my destiny,
Jai Oh! Uh-uh-uh-oh!

(Jai Ho)No there is nothing that can stop us(Jai Ho)
Nothing can ever come between us(Jai Ho)
So come and dance with me,
Jai Ho! (oohh) (You and me, it's destiny)

Catch me, catch me, catch me, come and catch me,
I want you now,
I know you can save me, come and save me,
I need you now.
I am yours forever, yes, forever,
I will follow,
Anywhere in anyway,
Never gonna let go.

Jai Ho (Yeeeaaahh), Jai Ho (Yeeeaaahh), Jai Ho

I need you,
Gonna make it,(Jai Ho)
I'm ready,
So take it!

(Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,(Jai Ho)
You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai Ho)
You are my destiny,
Jai Oh! Uh-uh-uh-oh!

(Jai Ho)No there is nothing that can stop us,(Jai Ho)
Nothing can ever come between us,(Jai Ho)
So come and dance with me,
Jai Ho! (oohh) (You and me, it's destiny)

Jai Ho!

Baila baila!
Baila baila!

Jai Ho!

Baila baila!

Jai Ho!

ENJOY!

mr remedy's in brisbane...

2009-04-19T11:38:00.009+08:00

hi peeps,

i went to jason mraz's concert last tuesday (14/4) at brisbane convention center with a few of my friends (syefah, taqwa,jg,aiman,zul,faddy,sani &ayu). it started at about 7.30 pm and ended at 11pm.it was a hell of experience.first time in my life that i encountered a concert that was so laid back and relaxing. there were 2 guests' performance from a girl name sarah mitchell(i dunno whether i spell the name right) from melbourne and a superb guy by the name of eric hutchinson. the girl opened the concert but i was a bit dissappointed as i coulndn't hear what she was singing. the music was fine but i kept on putting my listening ears to its highest ability just to hear what she was singing.but nevermind.then, eric came. he was totally different to the girl before coz he was very energetic and fun. he's really an entertainer. i enjoyed looking at him working the stage and the crowd on. he interacted and entertained the audience maginificiently. he has attracted me with his music.i'm gonna find his cd later.hehehe.for more info about him and to listen to his songs, just log on to this website. (http://www.erichutchinson.com/). you'll love his songs.trust me.;)

and them mr mraz came to the stage.the crowd went crazy.so as my friend, syefah.it was her dream of going to mr mraz concert.without a doubt, he is a superb entertainer. he didn't look awkward on stage and he was very relaxing and fun to look at. he sang most of the songs from his latest album which i have analyzed and tried to memorize the lyrics for these past few weeks. but i really wanted him to sing his "evergreen" songs like remedy and you and i both love.but anyways, i really enjoyed myself.especially when he started to sing "I'm Yours".i shouted my heart out and sang along with him throughout the song. it was fantabulous!!

some of the pictures from the concert:

me n jg

me n faddy with her Blair inspired hairstyle

the crowd

abg mraz!

abg mraz lg!

that's all for now.have to keep on doing my assignment.

cheers.

regards,
zaim

of a pyschotic housemate and ABPBH 2008

2009-04-13T11:49:00.004+08:00

hye peeps,
today's monday.i woke up at 10.30am.a bit late.but i really need my sleep since i've been longing for a good rest since past few days.it's currently raining outside.cold.freezing.chilled.enough said.

having breakfast today.or should i say our brunch.at 11 am i guess.later, a few of my friends decided to play Wii Mario Kart.it was very fun.we were enjoying ourselves when suddenly we heard a knock at the door.hhhmm.and suddenly we were all staring at each other,guessing who's on earth to be knocking at our door during this rainy day.and to our surprise it was our housemate.the one who stays below our house.

fyi, my friends and I(who are all malaysians) are staying in a two storrey country house(?????) and we're all staying upstairs.while the lower part of the house accomodate other foreign students from germany.france and sweden.

enough of the description. and this fella came to knock our door just to acknowledge our high pitch and loud voice and that somehow distracted her sleep. she came with this annoyed and frustrated look which we ignored totally. and the she started nagging "i'm trying to sleep.u guys said yoshi yoshi(which is one of the characters in the game).and u cried (???) loud.i can't sleep.u disturb me."that's how she confronted us. and then i apologize to her for being disrespectful of her right to sleep in the morning.and the she left.

and we were saying."What the f***k man!(WTF)".ok.let me put this into words and elaborate it. she was talking about being noisy and loud when she herself conducted a party almost every weekend which distracted our sleeps.so WTF(again)!.and we cried??.WTF(again)!.u mean "we shouted" or "screamed"?.and for her to be knocking on our door with her f""king ugly face and started to tell us of what we aren't supposed to do, again, WTF!. first, she was being so rude by simply blaming us without asking politely. second, that face??.that annoyed and disgusted face of yours.i can picture ur face clearly.the very moment u came to knock on our door.my friends who were there can see that face which we raged in anger for.i can assure anyone who sees the face would feel the same as we felt on that very moment.

we were very dissappointed with that scenario.yes, we admit that we did make noise but not as loud as u guys did when u held ur freaking parties.enough said.we came to a decision to just shut our mouth up and see what she wants to do next.yes, we are very kind and respectful people.

ok.enough of the story and gossiping. last night, Anugerah Bintang Popular Berita Harian was held. but i missed it.damn!.just because i dun know which website can i go to watch the event live.plus i have to do my assignment.but anyways, Acan did tell me of a good news.Datuk Siti won again.she won that category for 12 times in a row.what an achievement!.i'm very proud of her.she's totally my idol.and yesterday, acan had found out that siti will be organizing a concert in june.aaaahhh~~.i'll totally miss it.damn!.i really want to go to her concert.since now she's considering to retire and probably i will not be seeing her in a concert again.i hope she'll postpone the concert till the end of this year or next year.then i can go.

List of all the winners of that night.

That's all peeps.for those who are currently on holidays,enjoy ur hols.for those who are preparing for the exam,good luck!.

cheers,
zaim

all i ever wanted

2009-04-12T18:12:00.003+08:00

hye peeps.(again).
3 posts in a row.haih.that shows how boring i am right now.supposed to do my assignments but my mind just not in the "zone" yet.

the purpose of this post is to promote kelly clarkson's new album "All I Ever Wanted".superb album!.maybe u guys would think that the comment that i've just made is overrated just because i'm just a big fan of hers. but hell yeah!it's superb!.it is kelly's fourth album and most of the songs are catchy and fun with most of them belong to "rock" genre.

a few of my favourites currently~my life would suck without you, if i can't have you, whyyawannabringmedown,long shot

so guys, rush to your nearest music store and grab this album!

cheers,
zaim

of being in a foreign country.

2009-04-12T17:43:00.002+08:00

hye peeps,
feel like writing about my experience of being in a foreign country. it has been one year and 2 months since i last arrived in this beautiful land called brisbane located in australia. so many new experiences; good and bad, happy and sad.but i come to a conclusion that i love being in a foreign country.

but why's that?simple.i like being independent.i love being just on my own without worrying about other people.but i'm not saying that i dun need other people.i need my friends too for company.i need my lecturer for my studies. i just love the fact that i am now on my own. i dun need my parents' supervision all the time. i dun need my sisters' nags and my aunts and uncles babbles about what's best things in life.i'm now my own boss who manages his life.i do sometimes face with ups and downs.but that's just life.so much trials and tribulations.

reflecting back on the incident that happened at the airport when i first wanted to fly to aussie, i think i've been lying to myself. fyi, i did cry my heart out at the airport which caused my entire family to burst into tears. maybe it's true that i'll miss them when i arrive in aussie.but then again, i do enjoy being here.on my own.quite contradicting but it's true.that's what all the people are saying "cuba dulu baru tau".and i tried and enjoy every second of it.

being in australia has taught tremendously; of being a student and a person. i can now proudly claim that i am an independent learner.(but not the one who succeeds all the way.hahaha.but i will)i am well aware of my own studies.i can now manage my own financials. although sometimes i did face challenges in managing it. i learn to be more respectful to other people and do not underestimate them. i learn to be more patient. i learn to be more self-concious and control my own self. but most importantly, i learn about myself much better.

i only have 7 months left before i come back to malaysia for good. the experience that i've gained in australia will truly be a one-of-a-kind experience and will always stay in my mind.forever.

cheers,
zaim

sometimes it hurts...

2009-04-12T12:39:00.002+08:00

for those who're not familiar with me, i'm a very sensitive person.very sensitive.sometimes it's unbearable;not just for me but the people around me too. i do sometimes wonder why do i have this kind of feeling.it's very rare for a guy(i guess) to be very sensitive.maybe it's just an innate behavior/traits that i have or maybe it's genetically influenced.

i can get easily hurt and touch.very easy.sometimes it suffocated me.i'm annoyed with myself.why do i hv to feel this way?why dun i feel the other way around or just ignore it?.it's just hard.i try though.i try to eliminate this feeling.i try to lead my life the easy way.but i just can't.

i dun blame anyone for this. for those who were hurt or annoyed by my sensitivity, i apologize. i do. i try to be a better person. i promise.

p/s this has nothing to do with any incidents.it's just me; writing what i feel.

thanks heaps,
zaim

you who have made my holidays.......

2009-04-10T13:12:00.002+08:00

hi peeps,
it's been a while.a month i reckon.hahaha.nothing much happening to me.just my everyday routines.going to class,sleep, gossiping, eating, etc. quite dull i guess.

oh yeah.i'm on a holiday right now.mid sem break@easter break.a week off from classes.but wait!.i've got few assignments to be submitted just after the break.i've got lesson plans to be done ( 14 altogether~i guess) for my tesol and science.and also i have this research paper on tesol methodology.aaaarrrgghhh~~.they do make my holidays...what should i say....worse!catastrophic!.i dunno.can't put into words. yup, i know.everyone is saying "biasala, students".but i seriously need a break.a fine break.just a BREAK!.literally. but anyways, i'll work on that soon.

and one more thing. just this one thing that makes me feel joyous for a while.next tuesday (14/4), i'll be going to jason mraz concert.yes, JASON MRAZ!.been listening to his new album these past weeks and hoping that i will not turn up to be like an idiot or blur during his concert for the fact that i only know quite a few of his songs (remedy, i'm yours and lucky).hahaha.looking forward to that. and also, i'll have some plans to go to some other concerts too.(beyonce in september and il divo in october).yup i know.i'm slowly turning to be those concerts freaks(is this the correct term?p/s not the one who wears outrageous outfits or acted silly) but where else could i get this opportunity other than in brisbane. to my fellow friends, dun worry.i'm still the same me.just that i want to get the experience.

i'm still planning for my winter holidays.i've made up my mind not to go to nz.i want to travel around aussie first.maybe i'll go there later.plus, i dun have enough cash.duh~~

i'll be joining this sport carnival in april (i still can't remember the date).i'll play tennis together with KA. currently, i've been practising quite a lot.and also i bought a new racquet.it costs me quite a fortune ( like one of my friends said "bleh beli tiket kapal terbang").but it's worthy. guess i'll be playing tennis from this moment onwards.haha.

that's all.will try to update regularly.see ya!

cheers,
zaim

first day of class sem 1 2009

2009-02-28T22:16:00.011+08:00

hi peeps,
this entry is about my first day of class this for sem 1 2009. for your info, this sem, i'll be taking 4 subjects which i think will be a burden for me coz the subjects are all tough.phew~~God plz help me! the subjects are:

1) Tesol Methodology 2 with my dearest Jo Carr
2) Field Experience with my beloved Erika Hepple
3) TESOL materials and curriculum development with Lyn May
4) Primary Science Education with Peter Hudson.

Gosh~i'm so freaked out just by typing the name of the subjects especially the 4th one. science?No Way man! i've had bad experience with science since my primary school years. i've never like science until now.i dunno why but science doesn't excite me at all.but anyways i have to take this subject. it's compulsory.

anyways, here's a few pics from my first day of class

ok that's all peeps.

will keep updating later.

adios,

regards,
zaim

QUT O' week 09

2009-02-22T01:46:00.006+08:00

hye peeps,
i feel like i want to upload a few pics from the O Week this year at my uni. i went to Garden's Point campus and here are a few pics from there.

Range of expressions of getting too hyped up with the excitement there.haha.

u'll be the judge whether we had enjoyed ourselves there or not.hehe.anyways, i forgot to mention that i went to O Week with my fellow housemates; JG,Aiman,Acan n KA. this was our first housemates outing.heheh.

that's all for now.

adios,
zaim

first week in brisbane

2009-02-20T23:53:00.002+08:00

hye peeps,

fyi, i've arrived in brisbane last week and been busy unpacking and arranging my stuffs in my new room.n yeah, talking 'bout my new room, i like it.it's not that big and not that small.it's just nice.but one problem is i can't accommodate all my clothing inside the closet coz it's a bit small.but it's just a small matter.i'll find a solution for that soon.n for now, i just love my new room!.

yup, my first week in brisbane after a long 3months holidays in malaysia has been quite boring and dull.duuhhh~~~i've been anticipating what would it be like if i have arrived in brisbane and now i found it to be a bit dissappointing. not for the fact that i've met my friends again and share hot stories among each other, it's just i have nothing to do. i've also met my juniors who were arriving a day before i was. they were all very enthusiastic and super excited,just by looking at their naive faces. yup, that reminded me of what i was when i first arrived in brisbane.hehe. if i have one more thing to say to the juniors, HAVE FUN!full stop.

and one sad thing. i can't work at the kebab store where i used to work before. my manager said that he had hired 4 new persons and couldn't afford to hire another one. and most probably the store will be close in 6 weeks time. when i first heard the news, i was a bit funny but at the same time, i really feel for the store (what a phrase!).seriously!.i don't want the store to close. and i am currently searching for another part time job.pray for me ya!.hopefully i'll get it as fast as i can coz i'm in need of some cash at this particular moment.

the class will start next monday. i'm not mentally and emotionally prepared. when i was talking with my housemates today, i said to them, what if the government pays us to go to australia and we just stay at home and do nothing.ooohh~~marvellous, magnificient, super-duper-extra coolness!.hahaha..omg, my life is full of so much of "what if"'s.just because i love to day dream and imagining the impossibilities. the subejcts are tough too.i think. i take 4 units this sem and what makes this semester is more exciting is that i take science subject.wakaka.i'm not that good in science, in fact i had bad experience with science subject.huhuhu.anyways, i'll do better this sem.insya allah.amin!

now my house is already full.all of us have arrived safely and soundly in brisbane.syefah was the last one arrived. she just arrived today. that means i'll be experiencing living with new housemates this year.hehehe.

will update soon about my going-ons.

p/s probably i post some pictures to this blog. it's kinda dull, dont u think?

see ya peeps,

adios,
zaim

at last...

2009-02-06T16:24:00.002+08:00

hye peeps...

yup i know.u haven't got in touch with my under-goings for these past 3 months or so.as a lot of my friends knew that i've spent my summer holidays in malaysia. honestly, it was freaaaaaaking awesome! love every minute of it although sometimes i did feel a bit lost and hopeless (since my lovely and full-of-joy-and-harmony home is in quite a rural area and i dun have any choice of what i am going to do except for lingering around with my mom's car, went to the cc, catch up with my friends and eating in the one and only fast food restaurant existed here).quite dull huh~~.but i still love it. and for your info, i've been commuting from my hometown to kl almost every week.hehehe.

now i still have few more days till i leave malaysia. i have mixed feelings. i feel sad and at the same time i've been anticipating my life in brissy. my new life as a 3rd year student.OMG! can't believe that i'm currently in my 3rd year.i'll have my junior coming in.jo (my lecturer) always reminds my friends and I to stay focus in our 3rd year coz it will be more challenging.hope i can do well in my 3rd year. got to get better grades.amin~~~

and yes one more thing. i'll be moving to a new house located in West End with my 6 other mates. all of my stuffs have already placed there, thanks to ka n kak ai who helped me moving all of them. can't wait to try my new bed, new closet, new study table, new toilet and best of all new surroundings. i'll be living in a neighbourhood which consist of different races and cultures and am looking forward to experience it.

ok.i think that's all for now. we'll do some catch-ups later k? after i arrive in brissy and i'll get a proper internet connection.hehehe.

see you soon!

bye.

regards,
zaimmj

free as a bee...wee~~

2008-10-23T21:54:00.002+08:00

hi to all..
it's been like a month since the last time i posted something here.it's quite long aite?.yeah with lotsa assignments and part time job that filled up all those times, it didn't look long to me at all. in fact, i thought it was a bit short.hehehe..

anyways, as the title of this post is "free as a bee",i'm happy to let you all know that i'm free right now.with almost every assessments had been submitted, i can officially say that i'm free.altho i still have one more assessment to go yet i still feel free as a bee...weeee~~

i'm counting the days to go back to malaysia. two more weeks to go man!.can't wait.hehe.i hve lots of activities that i want to do.in fact i have a list too.wanna see? here it is:

1) first of all, i wanna meet my family.that's the ultimate reason why i want to go back.miss them like hell.

2) go shopping. altho i must say that lots of items are cheaper here in aussie but i still love the excitement and the environment when i go for shopping in malaysia.

3)food. i miss my mom's cooking.i miss eating kenny roger's.i miss chicken rice shop.miss malaysian foods!

4)jalan-jalan cari pasal.hehe.this is what i love the most.drive my mum's or dad's car to any place that i want to go.

5)looking for a part time job. i'm not very sure about this one.but i'll try finding it.

6)Cuti-cuti malaysia.i want to have a family vacation.will suggest this to my parents.

i think that's all.currently. will add more to that later.

that's all peeps.bye!

assignment oh assignment!

2008-09-18T19:59:00.002+08:00

hi everyone!
yup.i know.all of u have already known what am i going to write.the feeling of "stressness" and f""ked up due to piles of assignments that buried my prosperous and joyous life.yes.u guys know the feeling.i dun have to describe it further.i know all of my friends(especially ones who are in my course) currently have lots of assignments to be submitted.well, i'll have nothing to say to you except for good luck and gambate!.

i'm in the midst(or should i say in the beginning?)of finishing up my assignment.i have one to submit next week and one the week after.luckily, i have one week off starting 27/9 until 5/10 and that means i can celebrate raya without worrying to miss classes.hehehe..

out of all these, i still enjoy my life tho. i just received my allowances.yeay!.for 5 months.and i was so happy.i shouted my heart out when i heard the news.there are so many things that i want to do with the money.hehehe.but i'll keep it to myself.no need to share with u guys.

that's all.have a blast ramadhan everyone!

cheers,
zaim

hello from malaysia!

2008-09-12T23:54:00.003+08:00

today, i was so excited. my long-awaited parcel (not that long actually..hehe) has arrived. this morning, before i went to work, i went downstairs to the admin office to see whether my parcel has arrived. and it did.and i came to a decision to take it after i finished my work today.

here's the parcel:

as u can see it was a mosquito's coils box.haha.i dun mind with the box.the important part is the contains.

and here's what inside:

these were just a few of what's inside. i think the parcel this time was quite heavy compared to the last time my sis sent me. this parcel was given to me from my family specially for ramadhan.and u can see the pic of instant "ketupat".and that's for hari raya.definitely!

thanks to my family again.really appreciate it.i got lotsa keropok ikan.hehe.and kerepek too.hhmm all time cravings!.

that's all from me.
chow!

cheers,
zaim

current updates

2008-09-10T08:48:00.002+08:00

hi peeps!
today is the 10th day of ramadhan.that's mean i have fasted for 9 days and i have 20 more days to complete the fasting.thrilled yet sad coz i like fasting!(what a statement!)

ok my current updates since the last post that i've posted:

a) last week was very tiring. i worked for 22 hours in a week!.gosh.it was a hell of experience coz i was fasting and working at the same time. luckily i managed to go through that successfully.i dun "tinggal my puasa la".dun wori readers...

b) i went for my last school visit on monday the 8th. i hve a mixed feelings on that. i'm happy yet sad(again!).i love the school. i love the children. i like the teachers.what else could we get from such a prestigious school in brisbane.i wish i'll be send to such school when i go for my teaching in 2011.God help me!

c)i've just submitted my MDB349 assignment yesterday.it was the second part of the assignment. i stiill need to submit another 2 parts which due in october.thank GOD!.that was my first time doing the assignment last minute. i did it in the morning and i need to submit it in the afternoon.alhamdulillah, i managed to finish it.that was my punishment for being so lazy these days. but i can't help it!this semester i feel so lazy and demotivated to learn. i dunno how.compared to last semester which i think i was much more motivated and eager to learn.huhu.

d)laziness. i'm so malas these days.i dunno why.i'd rather stay in my room and sleep the whole day than to go out.maybe it's because of the fasting.

e) yesterday i received a message from my mother. she said she dreamt about me.i was so touched. i called her right after that and asked her condition.she's ok.my father also was ok.there were only the two of them in the house. i was asking her,"Mak, makan pe buka hari ni?" and she replied "Makan ikan goreng ngan sayur masak bening je..yela kan mak ngan abah je kat umah."and i was touched.again.but i was not worried coz my sis will come back every weekends during ramadhan.and my parents will have a company for buka puasa.sorry mak n abah, if Australia were just 2 hours away from malaysia, i'll go back everyday to buka puasa with you.huhu.

that;s all from me.i'd better get ready to go to work.luckily today i'll only work for 3 hours.wish me luck!thanks again.

cheers,
zaim

first day of fasting

2008-09-01T20:25:00.004+08:00

salam to everyone.

first day of fasting outside malaysia and far away from home.how was it feel?to be frank, i felt nothing.wakaka.i just went through the whole day like any other days.tired, sleepy,bored.same as usual.nothing's different.ok let me tell you a bit about my activities for today:

3.45am: woke up to eat my sahur.i ate a bowl of soup and a few bread. i dunno why i woke up when usually i didn't.maybe it's the spirit of being in a situation where i myself have to take care of my own self.hehehe.klaka gler!

5.00am: perform my subuh prayer and went back to sleep.zzzzzzzzzzzz!!

7.40am: woke up to go to erika's class.i was so shocked when i saw my clock.i had only 20 mins to get myself ready for class.i bathed super quick and dressed super fast.luckily i did managed to get there before 8.00am.pheww!

8.00am:erika's class started.a few groups were presenting their microteaching.and after that we were learning and discussing on teaching vocabulary and words to students.i was so bored and nearly slept.haha.as usual!

11.30am:went to work.before that i stopped by at the bank to deposit an amount of money.my salary!hehehe.

12.00pm:started working at the kebab store.

3.00pm: finished working.went to a few stores to search for a container to fill up the soy sauce at my house.thank God i found one of those.decided to walk back to my house (which in the end i regretted it). i felt my legs were starting to dislocate from its proper location.maybe it's because of the effects of standing for 3 hours and started walking non-stop right after that.

4.30pm: reached home safely.fuhh.started to plan what to cook for "buka puasa".asked syefah to come over to cook(she's like a chef imported to our house).hehe.finally we decided to eat fish fillets and egg plant "sambal".yumyum.plus jg was extremely generous to donate her pizza to us.
and one more thing.syefah also made "roti jala".the dining table was covered with all the delicacies which made us eager to wait for the time to "buka puasa" came.and finally we did "buka puasa".

6.10pm: went to digital media class.at first i was hesitated to go but thinking of missing the class in the previous weeks made me felt that i need to go to the class.the class was sooooooooooooo bored. i did a podcast and presented it to the whole class.i kept looking at the clock because i wanted to go back early to watch Australian Idol.but i missed the show.huahua.dun wori.i'll vote for Chrislyn.go Brisbane!

9.00pm.watch tv and gossipping as always.

and now i'm writing this blog.yeah that's all happening today.if you find it cool, you must be out of your mind.if you find it frustrating, you should do a lot of soul searching and self reflection.anyways, it depends on how you perceive it.

chow~

lotsa love,
zaim

ramadhan al-mubarak

2008-09-01T02:30:00.002+08:00

hello peeps...
ramadhan's here.and i am glad that it's here coz i've waited for so long for it to come.it's just because i want to experience a totally different environment of fasting this year coz i'm in Australia and far from my beloved home.sob~

anyways, i'm looking forward on that.today is the first day of ramadhan and i've just eaten my post-midnight meal(sahur la tue).i ate a bread and a bowl of soup.just dun have the mood to cook any meal.plus i'm lazy oredi!..actually i miss my mum's voice waking me up to eat sahur.but today,right now, i didn't hear that which made me sad.plus i miss eating with my family and my mom's cooking.wuahawuahawuaha.no worries u guys.i'm not crying, i'm just sad.but yeah.like i said, i want to experience new environment.i know i can do it.

the first day of ramadhan will be a tiring day for me.as all my mondays will always be. i'll have class at 8am with beloved erika and at 6pm with Shaun.plus i'm working today which sometimes makes me wonder how am i going to go through today's activity.but i have to be strong.i need to.

looking forward for the experience today.will update soon about that.

till then,
bye.
zaim

of friendship and jealousy

2008-08-29T23:07:00.004+08:00

current mode~devastated,sad

how do u feel if someone you know best suddenly talk bad about you at the back??when you yourself hadn't done anything wrong to him or her???and you heard each and every words they're saying???clearly??

i have experienced it and i know how it felt.it hurts.bad.seriously.i myself sometimes didn't understand why people suddenly behave like that; start talking bad about you behind your back. i tried to understand over and over again and i tried to reevaluate my actions and behaviors towards others.but i didn't find any light to guide me through to find the ultimate answer.

i had discussed this matter with my family and friends which i trust the most.they all said "Maybe it's because they're jealous of you".but i replied back to them "On what basis? i don't do any harm to them. in fact, i tried my best to help them."they're all just stunned.speechless.at the end, they kept saying,"Just be patient.They'll get what they deserve later".But i don't want something bad happen to one of my friends although he or she had done something bad to me.

i cried so many times over this matter. i just don't know how to react and respond. i felt helpless at times when it came to deal with this kind of problem. i keep on praying to God to help me.i just say to myself "It's just life.Just learn from it and continue on doing what you do best."

i try my very best to be a friend that anyone can rely on.i'll do whatever i can to preserve the friendship that i have made.although sometimes i need to tell lie and be fake.but i need to.coz i love my friends.

to all my friends, i love u guys dearly.the friendship that we have made will be cherished for the rest of my life.i'm lucky to have u guys as my friends.thank you.

lotsa love,
zaim

latest update

2008-08-23T19:28:00.002+08:00

hi.
welcome to another episode of a journey of a person named zaim.hehehe..sounds cheesy ha?yup it is.i can't deny it.just dun hve any specific things to write.maybe i'll update some things regarding my current life.

a)work. yes i am working now( for those who didn't read my last post).i am working in a kebab store.it's kinda bored at times but thinking about getting money at the end of it makes me work even harder .in fact, i need to work.this is all because of the rent of the house which i currently live in is very expensive and with my overspending habit and lack of knowledge in financial organization, i need to have more money.;)

b)uni.assignments keep coming in.i haven't started any one of them yet.hehe.yeah such a normal thing for me as i'm not a kind of person who starts doing my assignments as early as possible.but the thoughts of getting better grades for this semester somehow have pushed me a bit to be a bit more productive and effective.eventhough i hvnt started anything yet but i will.i have to.yes i am going to!

c)home.lately i miss home badly. i mean bad!.i keep on thinking about my parents and siblings. every night i'll have them in my dreams.huhu.sometimes it makes me want to burst into tears but i have to be strong.and i'll keep playing this thought over and over again inside my mind "ala, 2 tahun je, xlame.lgpun akhir tahun ni aq blik.lg 2 bulan je nk blik". if i can survive six months, how come i can't for only 2 months?.c'mon zaim.small matter la..

d)adjusting my life for next year.haha. currently i try to find a house for next year.hopefully i'll find one before i get back to malaysia.

there are lots of things that happened for the past one week but i'd rather keep it as a secret.hehe.mcm la bende tue private sgt. it's nothing la.basically that's all.hehe.

c ya again1

first day of work

2008-08-15T21:39:00.002+08:00

today was my first day at work.i've been assigned to work in a shift starting at 11am to 3pm. it was very tiring as i can't sit for the whole 4 hours.i didn't eat before i went to work which made my "tiredness" overflowed to its maximum level.

what made me even more nervous today was i have been observed and evaluated by the general manager. i haven't met him before.he suddenly appeared from the back of the store and started teaching me on how to make a more proper kebab. i was so naive and started to follow each of his direction. but it was worth a time to hear him teaching on how to make the kebab. before this, not that i hadn't get the chance to learn how to make kebab but before this, i was not very sure.and now, i think i hve mastered the kebab making.yeay!

tomorrow i will have another shift. from 10-3pm. and right after that, i will have to rush to ekka for the last dance performance. it must be a tiring day again for me tomorrow.but it's life right!

till then,
bye peeps!

of a happy and sad moment

2008-08-14T20:27:00.002+08:00

salam to everyone.

yesterday was a happy and sad day for me.my emotions were juggling up and down.there were times where i felt so down and there were times where i felt so happy.here's the story:

the sad moment occurred at about 12pm.i was busy practicing with all the dancers for ekka which will be held later that evening.suddenly i received a message from my sis.she said that my grandmother had passed away. i was extremely shocked.my emotions were all mixed up. while i was in the midst of enjoying myself, i received such a tragic news which i myself couldn't possibly handle.being me, an emotional person, sometimes it's hard to predict what i'll be reacting.and at the moment i received the news, i didn't cry.yes,i didn't which i myself can't believe it. i dunno.maybe because of the mixed feelings that i had. but later, the emotions suddenly built up and i cried my first tear when i was about to start my dance part which is zapin.

i suddenly blame myself for not seeing my grandmother right before i flew to australia.i did see her but only for a short period of time. until this very second, i still have the image of her face right in front of my eyes and in my mind. i miss her.terribly.i feel like i want to fly back to malaysia but i couldn't afford the flight ticket.i miss her cooking.i miss to hear her laugh and see her smile.i just miss her.that's all.but what to do.it's fate. and it's Allah work and i, as a normal human being cannot challenge Allah's will.what i can do is just pray for her.hopefully she will be placed among all "orang2 beriman".amin.

the happy moment happened in the same day just a few hours after i received that tragic news. i finally got the chance to dance in front of other people. what makes me so happy and proud is that this is my first time doing that and surprisingly, i'm enjoying it.not for the fact that i favour being in the limelight but i just enjoy dancing and performing.and one more thing, i'll be performing againg this saturday.and i'll make sure this time should be much better.that's the spirit that i need to put forth.

~yesterday was a tough day for me yet i learned a lot from it.thank you Allah for giving me the opportunity to experience it.hopefully i'll be a better person in the future.

p/s: tomorrow i'll start working in a kebab store.wish me luck my dear readers!

the end

i love kids!

2008-08-11T21:54:00.002+08:00

~ today was a big day for me. it was my first time going for a school visit in australia. i was so eager to go and observe and the most important part was i got the chance to see all those cute little faces.i love it!

i was sent to Ironside State School in St Lucia. i woke up a bit late though today but fortunately i didn't miss the bus.alhamdulillah. i arrived safely to the school at about 8.20am and went straight away to the office with my other 3 friends(acan,ayu and izy). we met with the deputy principal and she has conducted a small tour around the school. i was assigned by erika(my lovely lecturer) to observe a year 4 class. i met with the class teacher which is super duper nice. his name is terry edwinsmith. i think he is about 40+ years of age. he has this face that makes students feel easy to talk to him. and i felt the same way too.;)

i was introduced by mr edwinsmith to the class. they are very nice. the class is multiracial with a mix of australians, japanese, chinese, indonesians and malaysians too!.the class started right after mr terry introduced me with a morning talk prepared by 4 students. after that, they had a session where they learned how to write a letter.

i noticed a few major differences in this classroom compared to previous classrooms which i have experienced for the past couple of years when i was in primary and secondary school. they have a few breaks between the lessons. they have this one break called "fruit break" where the students will eat fruits that they bring from home. and after that, they will have their lunch break for about half an hour. compared to most of malaysian schools, they have only one break which i thought was a bit stressful. apart from that, the number of students in the classroom that i observed is only 24 but compared to most of malaysian classrooms, the number is ranging between 35-45 students. less number of students will give the teacher more time to be spent to the students directly. this was what i observed from the classroom where the teacher spent time with the students if they were not understanding the lesson taught.

it's enough i think. i feel as if i were to write an assignment.hahaha.anyways, i do enjoy the visit. a new experience for me.

of curry puffs and "makan-makan"

2008-08-09T08:12:00.003+08:00

yesterday, i went to ponny's house to help syefah with all the cooking needed for the qut mysa "makan-makan". Altho, frankly speaking, i didn't help that much, but the fact is i do help.hahaha.i helped to do the curry puffs.for your information, this is my first time doing the curry puffs. and i was put in a section where i need to do the "kelim" part which i think the most hardest and crucial part of all.scary huh?

but i managed to do it. with the help of my fellow friends (syefah~of course,jg,acan,ka,puteri n emy).altho emy and puteri were so tired because they were just coming back from work, but they still helped us with their tremendous effort of putting all those curry puffs together. but being human, there must be something unpredictable happening (we all know what was it) which i see as unforseen circumstances.and we dun blame at anyone for that simply because we are amateurs!.let me tell you that "circumstances" made the number of curry puffs decreased a bit.sorry syefah~

we had a good fun.it took us nearly 3 hours to finish up.and after that,we had our dinner.(thanks to syefah who didn't stop cooking from the minute she arrived n also to ponny who sponsored our dinner for that night). we watched tv together and left the house around 11pm.

today is the big day.the "makan-makan" by qut mysa. hopefully it will run smooth.n the most important part is hopefully no one will get a stomach ache just because of eating the curry puffs.let's pray for it!.

finally...

2008-08-07T19:51:00.000+08:00

the title says it all. finally, i did something which i waited for quite sometime which is to sing in a choir.yeay!. today, i started learning to sing in a choir after a long wait which made me sometimes a bit "nervous".yup. my first ever experience of singing in choir full of experienced musician and tremendous singers. i was so nervous and enthusiastic at the same time. yet the nervousness got control over me during the practice session. As i was singing, my voice started to shake.but i have to make a complement towards myself coz i managed to control the voice not to be heard out loud.hehehe.

but yeah, it was a hell of a good experience. i struggled a lot especially when it came to sing just by reading all the notes in the music scores. i dunno anything about those tiny little dots and a line with a twirl at the bottom or at the top of it.it was so funny as i needed to hear the person next to me sing in order for me to get the correct note.luckily that person was able to read those notes.and i managed to sing according to the notes in the music score. yeay!. but seriously i need to learn how to read it otherwise i will get stress out and left behind. i dun want that to be happening.

i basically learn something today. i know a bit about those music notes but i need to improve on my knowledge regarding that. can't wait for the next session!.

a hope is what i'm longing for.

2008-08-07T19:46:00.000+08:00

hope.it's just a word. yet it does have a deeper meaning.and it is what i'm currently undergoing. i'm longing for hope.i just want some hope. a hope that can bring a more clearer path for me. a hope that can shed some light through out my years. yes, a hope is sometime "hopeless".but i'm in need of that. could you please lend me some hope?.just some hope.a bit is enough for me.yet i still have got none of it.

kemalasan melanda

2008-08-01T23:21:00.000+08:00

i have started my new semester last week and still my level of "kemalasan" is at its highest level. i still haven't got the strive and determination to start this new semester. i feel lost. yes i am.lost.i was so "malas" until i feel like i want to quit studying.eh wait!. quit?.OMG. u r crazy!.yes i am. after thinking about it for several times. eh hello(tiru sufy), i have a contract with the government. if i were to quit studying, that means i have bridge the contract. and the most important part is i have to pay back all the money to the government.hahaha.where can i find that amount of money?.nk korek lubang hidung pun x jumpe.hahaha.

ok now let me tell all of you the subjects that i take during this semester which i think have caused me to feel a bit stress and of course "malas".
a) TESOL Methodology.the major subject in this sem.altho the lecturer seems a bit fun, yet i can't give full attention in class.plus the class starts early which means i have to wake up early.that really kills the mood!.
b)Excursions in Mathematical Reasoning.i love maths.i do.this subject is kinda interesting as it evolves around maths and reasoning.but the class in the afternoon.can't concentrate coz i will feel very sleepy.
c)Digital Media in Education.kinda interesting.but the class lasts for 3 hours and it is from 6pm-9pm.gosh!i am so cramped!
d)Introductory Ensemble.hahaha.my fav subject(i think). altho i havent started the class yet, but i think i will enjoy it.yeay finally i have the chance to join a choir team and this subject allows me to do that. and the most important part is i can do what i love to do.SINGING!

basically that's all the subject that i take this sem. and really i need help. i am so "malas".tq.

p/s: assignments start coming in and i need to do it fast but then again i am so "malas".

budget

2008-06-13T01:30:00.000+08:00

salam to everyone..
budget.... a "must" term used and applied by most of the students especially for me who lives far from home and family.i am currently undergoing a series of "budgeting" after spending a lot of money. i have to restrict myself to all sorts of things that i enjoy doing for the past few months.

this is the list of things that i have to restrict and be aware of:
1) makanan. i admit that i am a food lover. i enjoy eating. but now i have to put some limit for it.
2) movies. huhuhuh..perkara paling sedih yg perlu aku "budget".i need to watch movies!.
3) shopping. i have lost a lot of money because of this but still i am enjoying it!.

List of things that make me to do this "budgeting"
1) house rent. harga mahal nk mampos!. i have to pay nearly 200 dollars per week so it will add up to 800 dollars per month. gosh, i hate this CLV..
2) internet. my internet connection here is separated from the house rent. so i need to spend like 20 dollars per month depending on how often i use the internet.
3) phone bill. i have to have 29 dollars every month to pay for the bill. but recently i have found out that my bill has exceeded!!aaarrrgghhh.. i need to pay 40 dollars this month.
4) traveling. i have planned a traveling experience during this winter break with my friends. we plan to go to sydney n melbourne. this will require a lot of money as we will have to find a place to stay in melbourne. i reckon i will spend 1000 dollars for this.

i am not blaming the government for giving me insufficient amount of money. i blame myself!. i spent a lot!. padan muka ko zaim...skarang baru ko tau susah..

this is a wake up call for me. I have to be aware next time with my spending habit.hehehe..

p/s: I NEED A JOB!!!

goodbye peeps!

sex and the city: SUPERB!

2008-06-05T22:59:00.000+08:00

hahaha..i know. i just went over limit by saying such word. but i just love the movie.seriously. i was not a follower of the hit series but i enjoyed it. like A LOT!.the plot is good.the acting is amazing.love Sarah Jessica Parker in the movie.she looks damn gorgeous!!i wouldn't know a woman with her age can look amazing,beautiful and damn hot!.the other three women which are Carrie's (Sarah) friends, Samantha, Charlotte and Miranda, they are all really beautiful.
one thing that attracted me from the movie. a love letter that Carrie's read to her boyfriend John. this love letter was written by Ludwig van Beethoven.beautifully written.

Ludwig van Beethoven
The letter: to the Immortal Love

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, not and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can only live wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the lands of spirits - Yes unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V[ienna] is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - at my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in out connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes everyday - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the l[etter] at once. - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve out purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. -Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of you beloved.

ever thine
ever mine L.
ever ours

~this is the love letter that brought Carrie and John back together.oooppss!! say no more.just watch the movie peeps!!

bye..
see ya peeps!!

lalala cari kerja..

2008-06-04T17:08:00.001+08:00

hehehe...lalala cari kerja..
i've been searching for part time jobs for three months but still i hvnt got any one of them...sob3..
until today, i still search for it as i desperately need a job.not that the government doesn't provide enough money for me to survive here but i need more.i seriously need more money..
things that i plan to do with the money that i get if i were to get a part time job:
1) shopping bebeh!!shopping..miss the adrenaline rush when u go out for shopping.miss the excitement.miss everything about it.i need more jeans,more shoes and more belts.hehehe. i think what i have right now is not enough. although i have it back in malaysia but i dun want to burden my parents by sending all those stuffs here. i miss going out shopping in malaysia.malaysia is a shopping heaven!

2)new digital camera.hehehe.maybe a lot of my closest frens know my all time fav camera here in aussie. thanks to my sis for letting me to bring it to aussie. but i need a new one.since these days, my "cam whore" level is slightly increasing.

3)presents for my siblings and parents. their birthdays are coming soon. i need to give them some presents. birthday presents all the way from aussie. hehehe.i plan to give my sis a perfume, my brother an mp3 player, my mom a handbag and my father a shirt.

4)traveling. i want to save money for traveling this year and next year. although this year i have prepared the money to go traveling, but being me "zaim mohd jais", that money wouldn't fit my desire of buying stuffs from those places as this is my first time of going there (sydney n melbourne). and next year i plan to go to new zealand and obviously i need more money to fulfill that dream.

basically that's all my plan if i have the money from my part time job.hope i'll get one.pray for me.

a little bit of an ear and eye candy for all of you. a song from meet uncle hussein (i dun noe whether i spell the name correctly)

Funny Videos

till then
bye peeps!

say hello to a new day!

2008-05-29T09:35:00.000+08:00

hello!!! (as the title of this post ask me to do).

how r u going folks?hhmmm..today is a brand new day.yeay~~~.yesterday i have finished my clb320 exam which means that i still have one more exam paper n one more assignment to submit to end this semester..yahoooo!!!..enough with my excitement..

but i can't help it.yesterday when i went out from the exam room, i can feel the burden was coming out from my shoulder.i felt extremely relieved.yes!!although i was not satisfied with the way i answered the questions....coz of the time limit..i still have a lot more to write but time passed by soooo fast...but what to do!hhhmmm..

currently, i'm in the midst of finishing my assignment..it's a research paper of a second language user...i hv done the interview last night and i need to find sources and studies that will support my findings..hhhmm..but for now, i found none!!yes NONE!!hahaha..but don't worry peeps...i'll try my best to find one..

that's all for now.need to continue finishing my assignment.
till then...
chow~

kemalasan yg melanda....

2008-05-28T06:39:00.000+08:00

i'm screwed! enough said.this is all because of my kemalasan yg di tahap maksima.hahahha..
~i have a test today but still haven't done a "proper" revision...dh la malas nk menghafal..isyh semuanya malas la..but i know i have to do better in this exam because of my assessment yg not that good..i can say...need to strive for better grade..although for me it doesn't matter at all..hahahaa..pening la..but i remember what my parents have told me...blaja rajin2..jgn malukan mak n abah..make us proud...huhuhuh...ok mak n abah..i will!
~i have one assignment due next week but still haven't started anything.although someone may said that it is a bit easy but still for me i'll be struggling finishing it.i don't have the passion to write (except for all those craps..ahaha).ohh please help me!.
~kemalasan untuk mencari keje..hhhmm..i hve applied to all sorts of work but still haven't managed to get one.huhuhu..i desperately need a job rite now.need more money to satisfy my needs..hehehe..gler la ayat itu..but yeah..plus the condition in which i dun want to ask money from my parents.... i need to work..work..work..

itula...jgnla jd cm sy yg pemalas ni...but seriously i want to improve on that..SERIOUSLY!!

bye for now peeps!

one day as zaim mohd jais....

2008-05-24T22:34:00.000+08:00

hahaha..i know the title of this post cm membangga diri skit..but anyways just wanna share my activities for today (saturday 24/5/08).
1) woke up a bit early today (7.00 am~cm x caye je~).usually hr sbtu cm nie, the earliest time that i'll wake up is 9 a.m..hhmm..what an achievment!

2) watch television.nothing much to watch.i dunno.i feel a bit bored when watching those programs in the television.they're all lame and hopeless(what a strong word to use..hehehe).miss malaysian tv programs.i miss watching hindustan movies every satuday at 2 pm(tv3).

3)as usual, surfing the net.checking my mail,frenster,myspace,etc. find and read recipes from the net.hahaha..maybe i'll have ideas on what to cook.

4)went to the valley.bought some groceries.plan to do "makan2".

5)received a phone call from my mom.she asked about the parcel that she posted for me.i hvnt received it.heheh..can't wait for it to arrive.my mom has posted a lot of my favorite food.hahaha..hbisla gemuk la pasni..thanx mak n my sis gak coz tlng poskan and belikan makanan!muaahhhxx..

6)i came to know that akademi fantasia has already reached its final stage.aaaarrrggghhh...that is one of my fav shows. i don't have the chance to watch it here.i've been the biggest fan since its first season.but what to do!dh nasib..huauahua..

basically,those were the things that i did today.n one more thing,miss malaysia so much!

p/s i've already booked ticket to go back to malaysia.so to all my frens back in malaysia, wait for me!yahooo!!

it's just life by ricki lee coulter

2008-05-16T23:31:00.000+08:00

just hear the song.somehow u'll understand what is meant by life.

again.life.but in a more leisure mode.

2008-05-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

it has been 3 months since i arrived in brisbane.enjoy it here.the weather (altho sumtimes it's freezing cold),the people,the uni(love it!).had a conversation with friends and suddenly i realized this is the first i havent been back to my hometown for quite long.back in ipba, i used to go back once every 2 weeks.never mind though, in fact i need to learn standing on my own two feet.i hve to learn not to be dependent.

until this very moment, i miss malaysia sooooooooo much!.no word can describe how i feel rite now.i miss my family (that is on top of the list),the food(aaarrrggghhh miss my mom's cooking),the place(midvalley dtgla ke brisbane),the weather (kt sini sejukkkkkk).i just don't know.if i were given a chance to go back to malaysia for only a day,maybe i want to do it.gler la..mane nk cri duit....(aiiyyoo another prob...duit mane la ko pegi...).

heart them so much!

nasi lemak yg sedap.huhu

midvalley yg indah!

my study...hhmm..i'm doing just fine.still have one more assignment to submit.will have two papers for the final exam.not in the mode to study (as always...;0) but have to do it.aim for great grades.go zaim!
nothing interesting going on lately.i'm just doing my daily routine as always.no pressure(except for i miss malaysia so bad!).

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2008-05-16T22:56:00.000+08:00

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life.love.hatred.

2008-05-16T22:53:00.000+08:00

life
full of love
full of hatred
one cannot change it
he has to accept it
the heart,the mind,the body,the soul
longing for something innocent,demure,decent
yet rage,anger,disloyalty,jealousy
overshadow everything
that is just it
LIFE.full stop!